Keeping My Goal and Promise

It is already day 15 and six and a half miles this week so far. My goal right now is 15 miles. I think I should be able to do it. I missed Monday, because of Labor Day, actually it was just because I wanted to take the day off of running and hang with the family. My day started off with my playlist choices. My choice today, Country list. I had a need to hear a little Sugarland, Taylor, and Lady A.. It was that kind of day. Glad I did too, this was one of the furthest runs that I have done in a long time. Three and a half miles while pushing a stroller sounds pretty good. I took a break in between so that Burke could have play time on the playground at the park, but I was running around with her there too! I still have not muscled up to weighing myself on a scale, but I will soon.

If I'm trying to work out and counting every calorie I take in... I have decided that I am counting every calorie that I expel as well. I feel that it should be counted that if you run all over the playground with your year and a half old than you have done a little bit of a work out. I don't mean that I'm going to count it the same as if I was actually running, but I am going up and down stairs, I am sliding down poles, I am going down slides.. I think that I have put out a few more calories than a mom who is just sitting on the bench watching her child and reading a book. (Not that there is anything wrong with doing that, it is just not me.) Sorry, dailyburn.com, I want at least 115 calories burned for playing with my kid. That is not too much to ask for. Right?

Another Good Run...

Here it is day... day 10 and I have been doing my part. I have not weighed myself. But on the other hand I am making the effort to work out. I have finally found my groove with the workouts. I have joined a dailyburn.com group called weight loss in 30 days. I have also ran ... get this... 12 miles this week! that is a pretty big deal for me. Usually, when I try and start running/jogging. I burn out by day two or three. I have ran consistently for four days. So I am now hitting my stride.

I have also come to the realization... I DO NOT HATE RUNNING! I do not necessarily LOVE it, but I am finally at the thought that I do not hate it. In fact I genuinely like it. This is a big step for me. For so long I have despised doing any running of any sort. I would swim, kick box, do yoga, Pilate's, WII fit... whatever else... except running. I think that finally falls back on the fact that it is free, I can do it with Burke (as long as she is occupied) and I now have a FABULOUS play list for my workouts. It really gives me that extra energy that I need.

Also, I think that I have realized, "I do not care what people think." I say that only because when I am out running I am always running around the neighborhood, a park or the beach and there are always people around. If you are like me and you have a few insecurities you think to yourself, "I wonder if this person is thinking, 'wow she has a lot to work off' or 'why is SHE running.' " I say that because I have probably said it about some one else. I realized I need to do this for ME and me alone... oh and you of course, who ever you are. I just do not seem to care about the other person any more. I also think that has made me less cynical, crazy as it sounds. When I see someone running now, I think "good for you buddy" or "at least she is out there."

I am working harder everyday, I am working out, eating better, and doing just a little more. I am in now way about to do something crazy and join a runners club or anything. I am not at that point. Besides for me that is when it stops being "fun". I am in awh of anyone that CAN do that, it is just not my style. I had a boss recently that put it into perspective for me. She was single, no kids so the runners club worked for her. I asked her how she liked it and she said: "Megan, I love to eat. I run so I can eat! I ran 6 miles yesterday and when I got home I ate six-pack of Sprinkles cupcakes as my dinner." My thought when she told me that was "good for her." I am not on that level yet. I am still on the thought of I am going to set a goal to run 15 miles this week so I may have a little less junk in my trunk! I hope to get to the point that she is at but I know it will not be for quite a while. For me... I run so I can lose my butt and stomach and then start to eat what "I" want.